[mk_dropcaps style="fancy-style"]T[/mk_dropcaps]alking about discipline these last two weeks, have you had a hard time willingly accepting it as a part of your relationship with God? I have. With losing my father over 2 ½ years ago, I found that I stepped into the role of protecting, providing, and disciplining myself. That is dangerous! When I took on this role in my life, I pushed others (including God) out of that position in my life. A few Sundays ago, while I was in prayer during worship at church, God gently asked me the question:
[mk_blockquote style="line-style" font_family="none" text_size="16" align="center"]“Can you let me take that role now?”[/mk_blockquote]
He was referring to the role of a father. The question took me off guard because I didn’t think I had taken that away from God. I thought I was open to His taking of that place. I have even been praying and desiring other godly men's input in my life to help fill the void. You see the danger in that, though, don't you? I am looking to man instead of God to fill a role that ONLY He can truly fill. He is our Abba Father. Or as we would say it today - our Daddy God. The role of a father is best filled by Him. What beauty comes when we lose our earthly father is that we then have a direct line to God. He has adopted us through Jesus. We all have Him as our father, but when our earthly father is no more, the covering we are under then transfers from them to God Himself. How powerful is that?
To allow the Lord to discipline me means I willingly open my heart to Him to have Him search it, test it, and lead me in the right way to live. (Psalm 139) That takes surrendering and forfeiting our sense and desire for control. Doing so is not easy for me, especially having such a strong bent toward performing/competing. I have to let go of my desire to prove my worthiness and let God lead me; thus resulting in His loving flowing in and through me. That is the powerful side effect of a fully surrendered heart. You realize how your growth and dependence on God is not about you. It is about our Heavenly Father and carrying His presence into every area of our lives.