Sedated & Delirious
[mk_dropcaps style="fancy-style"]N[/mk_dropcaps]ine out of ten people are overstimulated. Okay, that is my own made-up statistic. However, we can venture a guess in looking at the pace of our society today, that it is pretty close to that. We have texts, emails, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, Pinterest, and the less-popular phone calls; all vying for our attention each and every day. Not to mention the face to face interactions, roles and responsibilities we carry day-in and day-out. Add to that a major life event or work project and stress levels will skyrocket. We become so over-stimulated that we go into sedation mode as a means to cope. Coping may come in the form of easing physical stress by eating, drinking, or working out, among many options. The most common coping mechanism comes in the form of operating in an emotional state of sedation. You’ll hear people say that when they heard life-altering news, they went “numb.” When my father’s life was hanging in the balance January of 2008, I experienced, first hand, the full potency of sedation.
Strangely enough, when my dad was put into an induced hypothermic coma, I got to see how intense sedation impacts you. He was intubated for only 4 days, but such strong and long sedation, once removed, can result in a period of delirium. I thought my father’s intubation was the scariest thing I had ever witnessed. Little did I know that just few days later, seeing my father in a state of delirium while recently paralyzed would be even worse. Delirium is a weird thing. You go from being under-stimulated to overstimulated or even hypersensitive. Often, patients will see and experience things that are not there. Responses to neutral events are disorganized and illogical.
Now, imagine what delirium would look like if you were emotionally sedated. It would not be as evident and dramatic as my father’s instance, but the effects are there nonetheless. Not everyone will experience it in the same way, but I believe a large majority of us go through a state of delirium as we come out of our “emotional sedation.” We are overstimulated and don’t know what to do with all of the feelings, thoughts and ideas running through our heart and mind. Just like a patient in the ICU, we need special care and handling. The key is simply that the care must first come from the Lord and we must be willing participants.
It is my belief that in order to get out of a period of stagnation in our lives there must be a transition point. Delirium is just that; a transition point. Similar to transition during labor, the most intense stage of emotional “delirium” comes when one is becoming fully awake. Delirium is the time where the pieces of our heart that have been deeply wounded are being illuminated to begin the healing process. It is almost like they are re-injured as they are brought into the forefront to be addressed. Think about it. The pain from trauma, regret, discouragement, and broken promises leave a deep impact on our heart and on who we are. Reaching a place where we no longer avoid these things, but rather face them head on, is an intense and painful, albeit important and healthy, process. We must allow ourselves to go through this process experience full healing. No one likes to talk about it though. The process is not pretty, nor is it fun. But it is necessary to live a whole-hearted life and to be authentic and vulnerable in our relationships.
With that said, I don’t have a solution for you. What I do have is a call to action. Do you feel like you are walking in a delirious stage of life, transitioning from one season to the next? Are are doubting whether or not you are actually advancing? Does nothing seem to make sense where you’re at? Let me encourage you. You are NOT alone. What you are feeling is part of the process and this process is taking you forward, as long as you do NOT do it alone. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus. Share your heart with a few trusted friends. If you are not in a season where there are many of those, start with being friendly to those people God positions around you. If you are bold enough, please share a time and season in your life where you felt you entered the transition of delirium?
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