[mk_dropcaps style="fancy-style"]T[/mk_dropcaps]his week I launched the "Twelve to Well" social media series. This is a taste into the tips and tricks I include in my group wellness program. While that sounds really fancy, I wanted to pause to give you a look into the reality of what is going on behind the scenes. If you know me personally you are aware that I wear my emotions on my sleeves. I'm terrible at hiding things. Which is great most of the time. However, stepping out to do this video series is basically the LAST thing I ever thought I'd do. I'm great one on one and in small groups, but at a camera to that and things get AWKWARD. (Think Pitch Perfect "Aka-awkward" style). Truthfully the issue comes down to my self-confidence. This year especially I've been struggling to shake off the impacts of self-doubt and insecurity. Perhaps that is part of the price you pay when you step out to pursue new things. The unknown in all it's gray areas so easily tempts us to focus on all our flaws. What we are not versus what makes us unique.
With all the changes I've made this year in my work life this has been my struggle since the year began. It's not easy to press in and pursue what is on your heart to do. The lack of experience seems to scream at you every time you attempt to make a step in a new direction. Here is the truth, after a while you will make one of two decisions.
- Agree with the shouts that disqualify you. OR
- Shut up those voices by going forward anyway.
The beauty of #2 is with every step you get farther and farther away from the voice that seeks to disqualify you. While this is a nice word picture, it is also the truth. I believe the Lord has built each of us for a unique and divine purpose. The thing is you can't find your purpose by going inward. Yes you need to know who you are, yes you need to ensure you keep your internal world healthy, but 90% of the time the remedy to our fears of the "what if's" is to Step Out!
I recognize the more I do it, the more the temptation to shrink back goes away. That does not mean I don't feel fear. That I don't have moments of judgement of myself along the way. I simply don't let my focus rest there. The thoughts and feelings come, but the best solution I've found is to acknowledge them only long enough to replace them with the truth of God's word.
If you're wondering if you should step out, this post is for you. God is using me to tell you it's time to get moving. Stop analyzing and take the next step. You don't need all of the steps perfectly ordered to go. Experience is a great teacher. Understand though that the road will not be smooth and clear. But it is those obstacles that grow you and I.
Personally, I'm tired of the same old, same old. I don't want to get complacent and routine. That requires risk. I've had to accept that to move forward. Will you do the same? I sure could use your support out here in the "uncomfortable" zone. Let's do this together! Not perfectly, but with passion and faith that God is leading us into MORE. More intimacy with HIM. MORE revelation of His goodness. MORE opportunities to share His light with others. It all comes with that step.